I like it here, I don't like it here, I like it here and currently do not like it here.

Summer sucks b/c half of us are off at once and it feels like no one is here!  Plus, everyone keeps forgeting that I am NOT a biologist, I am an earth scientist.  I miss Nadine terribly even though I saw her a little over a week ago.  At this point in time I am thinking of not staying for the fall and job-searching while living with Nadine.  The reason for this is because I have no time to job-search at this job.  Errrr.

I miss my Pogo-a-gogo too.    I wasn't able to call her like I wanted to.  Because I was so tired last night that I forgot to and fell asleep at 7:30pm. 

Well it turns out this group is NOT my last but my third to last.  Two more to go, I'm using up everything I got in order not to snap and do things that might get me in trouble or in jail.  Let's just say chaperone's suck.  I guess I just hate adults.

Nadine sent me the most awesome care package ever!  DVD's and two books and other stuff to keep me entertained.  I was trilled when I received it!  I watched Transamerica yesterday, it was good.  Wouldn't recommend it for straight ppl.

Gotta go and work. Blah.

The news is I hate it here.  I'm so sick of teaching pretty much the same 3 day programs over and over.  Yesterday I just couldn't talk right.  Everything would come out wrong, during lectures, during the field experiences, even just trying to have normal conversation.  All that verbal diaherra just made me feel like a retard.  I'm fucking tired of trying to make everyone happy - cleanin' up after their shit, hanging out with them when I don't want to.

I want to go camping, or somewhere out of here.  But I'm still going to feel utterly alone no matter where I go or who I'm with unless it's Nadine.  I fucking hate it.  I've been crying like a baby this morning and will continue to cry all day - I can feel it. 

Nadine and I always get in fights.  It's always fight and make up.  It is a good thing, b/c when I'm angry or upset I tell the truth.  Then we are finally on the same page again.

I have visited Nadine up here at least three times since I've worked in VA.  She came and stayed down there once.  Then again she hasn't been able to get off work for more than two days in a row.  I don't understand how that works, b/c she only works three nights a week.  Damn it if hospitals would actually hire more nurses!  Her hospital wasted money on mosaic tiles for the brand new ER instead of taking care of the important things like their staff!!

Well this trip was really nice, Nads and I made it to Sisters a club in Philly.  It was a lil disapointing considering it was a weekend.  Not that many young hot lezzies.  Plus you have to be 21 to get in, so that maybe the reason.  Though it was fun laughing at the old (mid-age) DRUNK dykes humping each other on the dance floor.  It was so graphic that I cannot speak of it here.   We like the Colosseum in Jersey, it is the same distance away, plus you don't have to drive in the city.  The Colosseum has gay guys as well so they get the dance floor started.  You only have to be 18 to enter the club, so hot lezzies come to momma. 

Oh and I saw DaVinci Code... you must see, preferrably after reading the book.  Critics hated it.  But Hanks and the director and cinematography did an excellent job.  They handled it very well.